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Trusting Thursday

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The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. Psalm 23:1

The Lord has been referred to as the good shepherd. A good shepherd is someone that watches over his flock. He provides for them and takes care of them. The flock doesn’t worry about where their supply will come from because the shepherd is watching over them. In return the flock obeys and follows the commands of the shepherd. So in other words, as long as the flock is obedient they have nothing to worry about because the good shepherd is their provider. Even if one of the flock wanders off, the good shepherd will look for it and find it.  You should know where I am going with this already.

Yesterday my mind wandered to everything that has gone wrong or at least not in the direction that I wanted it to. I begin to wonder how I was going to survive this storm. I mean, I trust God but I was starting to worry about the “how” he was going to do it. I was wondering about how I was going to pay my bills. Then I heard the Holy Spirit tell me to send a $100 check to a specific organization that I didn’t want to. That’s how I knew it was the Holy Spirit because I would have never thought of that on my own. But I’ve been procrastinating about it. I finally got the envelope, I finally wrote the check, and now all I have to do is mail it.

But the reason why I was procrastinating about it wasn’t because of the organization that I was told to send it to (well…not all of it) but because I’m trying to keep every dollar to pay my bills if I have a lean month while I look for a job. Then it happen. First I heard a song that I’ve heard numerous times but this specific line sang out louder then before. “Jehovah Jireh. My provider.” Then I opened my book that I’ve been reading off and on. The page opened up to, “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall NEVER want.” I knew then that though I’ve been saying to people and to myself that I trust in The Lord, I was not showing it. My intentions were good but putting that trust into action was dismal.

The Lord is my shepherd. The Lord is your shepherd. If we just have faith the size of a mustard seed we can move mountains. We can feed a multitude of people with just a loaf of bread and fish. We just need to act and The Lord will do the rest. So I’m going to mail my check for $100. I’m officially acting on faith and trusting in The Lord. I consider it me sowing into what I thought would be impossible in my life to become possible just by being obedient.

What is the Holy Spirit speaking to you about? Are you being obedient? I think you should just do it. You did it your way and look where that has you. Trust in The Lord today, take the first step of faith.

Love you with the love of Christ,

Kelly

Trials & Tribulations Thursday

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Perserverance

Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Romans 12:12

Today I did not want to get out of bed. I was about to go down that road of why should I, it does not matter. Then my clock radio went off. As you may have read yesterday, I was having issues with my radio. Yesterday it would not do anything but play static. It interrupted my morning. Today it was clear and loud. It played as though yesterday did not exist. I had not moved the radio nor had I adjusted the antennae. It played like yesterday did not happen. What was more interesting was what the DJ was saying. He said, “there are no problems just a process”. That stunned me for a second because I thought about all my “problems” I am/have gone through. I believe that everything happens for a reason that will be disclosed at a later time if we are open to really knowing. But I had never thought about exchanging my “problems” to my “process”. So I hit the snooze. 10 minutes later the radio went off again. Clear and loud. This time it played the exact same song as yesterday. The song sang to me, “This is your season for grace and mercy. This is your season to reap what you have sown”.

I have come to the conclusion that things that make us uncomfortable and challenge our faith will happen. It is how we handle the discomfort. Will we cry uncontrollably? Will we become a monster to everyone around us? Will we become detached from the world? Will we start doing self-destructive things? Whatever we choose to do in a time of trials and tribulations is up to us. God gave us free will. But in our free will we have to think, do any of those self-destructive ways help us through the trials? Do they change what has happen to us or around us? The answer is no. It still happened. Yesterday is gone. Yesterday cannot be changed or altered. Just like my clock radio, today is a new day that is clear and you can make it as you wish.

Perhaps you have to make some of adjustments of your life because of your trials and tribulations, but do so with thanksgiving. God did not create you for failure. He created you for greatness. It is only up to you as to how long you want to operate in defeat or sadness. It is up to you of how long you want to take to discover your destiny. But know you will discover it. You can take the quick way or the long way. It is all up to you and your attitude. Will you allow today to be clear? Or will you still be disturbed by the interruption of yesterday? You decide.

God be with you. Grace and Mercy.

Love you,

Kelly

Wisdom Wednesday

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Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. Psalm 62:5-6

This morning my alarm only had static playing. For the last year, I usually wake up to gospel music. No matter where I moved the radio I got nothing but static. I moved the wires; nothing but static. But when I put my hand on top of the radio it played clearly. When I stopped getting frustrated by the interruption of my morning routine and just rested my hand on top of the radio, it played. It played, “this is my season for grace and favor. This is my season to reap what I have sown.”

As I sat here, with my hand on the radio the irritation of the interruption went away. I trusted that as long as I kept my hand exactly where it was my music would come out clearly. Just keep my hand where it was. Don’t try to move the radio. Don’t try to twist the wires a certain way. Don’t try to adjust the radio station. Just keep my hand where it was and relax.

I thought about what was happening. Sometimes we have interruptions in our lives. Things happen that we did not plan on. Things happen that totally confuses us. We become unglued. We become shaken. But if we remember that God is our rock and our salvation, we will not be shaken. We must stay focused on God’s promises. Not our situations or our circumstances. God will NEVER leave us or forsake us. He is our fortress. We can relax and rest in his presence.

Keep your focus on God. Keep your hand on top of the radio so your music comes out clear.

Be gracious today in everything you do. Be unmoved by circumstances. Be abundantly blessed my friend.

Love ya,

Kelly

Miracle-Receiving Monday

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For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6

There is a song that (I believe) says, “when I look back over my life and I think things over; I have a testimony.”  I’m at a point that I am excited about the testimony that I am going to have once I come out on the other side of everything I’ve experienced within a year. My testimony will be about perseverance in the face of major adversity. My testimony will be about exponential growth. My testimony will be about a peace that surpasses all understanding. My testimony will be about an increase in income and a decrease in debt. My testimony will be about the happiness that I found within. I believe in my testimony coming because I am very confident that the work that God has started in me will be perfected up until the day I close my eyes to wake up on the other side. I know that he is not done with me yet.

I have so many cliches that are floating around in my head but this is the best one that I have for you, “you wouldn’t have a testimony without a test.” If you are like me, you are thinking how can I get over this and use this for good. (You fill in what “this” is.) How can I smile when I just lost my job and I have no idea how I am going to make ends meet? How can I smile when I am a 45 year old divorce parent of a teenager? How can I smile when my beautiful nephew ended his own life? I will tell you how, through the strength of Jesus Christ who strengthens you. That is the only way how. I will be honest with you, no one can comfort me right now. No one has the right words to say to me and if they say the wrong thing, that’s trouble. So who do I turn to? God. He is an ever-present help in a time of trouble. He is always the same.

So whatever you may be going through right now, start performing your testimony. Speak it into existence. Imagine the people that you are going to tell about it. Think about how you are going to change someone’s outlook on life because you spoke possibilities into their life. Just because you can not see the wonderful outcome of your trials right now, know that it is coming. You will come out of this storm better than when you went into it. And you will be the reason someone will be able to survive their storm.

Stay faithful and expect great things to happen to YOU! Praise HIM through your storm.

Love you with the love of Christ,

Kelly

Fantastic Friday

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Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and he will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun. Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act. Psalms 37:4-7

From my reading it states that to take delight in someone, you have to know that person. So in order for us to take delight in the Lord we need to get to know him. How do you get to know someone? Well, there are numerous ways to get to know someone now. But the most effective way is talking. When you talk to someone you get to know their desires, hopes and dreams. You get to know the soul of another person. God wants you to do the same to him. He wants you to bear all you hopes and your burdens to him. Let him become that trusted advisor.

It’s interesting that with everything that has happened in my life over the last 90 days, I’ve found myself more and more by myself. I don’t feel like talking on the phone or being out with people right now. I don’t want anyone to ask that dreaded question, “how are you”. Because then I would have to answer honestly……..”I’m not ok. I’m functioning.” So I’ve been communicating more and more with the Lord. I’ve been telling him the desires of my heart. I’ve been trusting him with everything that is happening and with everything that is going to happen. I know that he knows the plans that he has for me and those plans are to prosper me in every area that has been affected. For everything that has been taken from me it will return tenfold. So that means that I will shine like the noonday sun soon. But in the meantime, I need to be still. Accept being by myself and wait patiently on the Lord to act.

We all face tough times. Things we have no comprehension of will happen to us. The key to surviving is giving up. Give up worrying, wondering and trying to fix our problems. Take delight in the Lord. Trust that he has our best interest at heart. Where man has forsaken you, the Lord will not. He loves you like no one else can or ever will. Rest on his promises and take heart that he is moving on your behalf. Matter of fact, it’s already done. Believe that!

Keep the faith my friend. The Lord loves you and so do I!

Kelly

Thought Provoking Thursday

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Storm

Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.

1 Corinthians 15:58

Yesterday I was totally caught off guard. The organization that I work for told me that they are letting everyone in my department go. I can reapply for my job and perhaps I will be rehired. If not, my last day is in about 1 month. And to add insult to injury, they said please do business as normal until then. Business as usual.

But it is not business as usual when your world has turned upside down. It is not business as usual when your heart has been broken. It is not business as usual when you feel so beat up from life that you can not get out the bed. It is not business as usual when you just do not have a clue of what you are suppose to do next. What do you do? If you are a believer, you stand.

Let nothing move you. Remain steadfast in praising, petitioning and expressing gratitude to our Lord and Savior. He is a ever-present help in a world that is topsy-turvy. What we experience God already knew it was going to happen. Which means he already knows how victorious we will be on the other side of our trials. We just need to remain faithful. Never lose hope because for after every storm there is sunshine. It may seem so tough at times but bad times do not last.

For me, I’ve decided to give myself to the Lord’s work. I’m going to try something new. I’m going to listen to that small voice and allow that voice to guide me. If the Lord says my work will not be in vain, then I believe it. Today I step out on faith fully even though my heart is broken because I loss my nephew to suicide. I step out on faith fully even though I am a divorced. I step out on faith fully even though my son has sickle cell anemia. I step out on faith fully even though they said I’ve loss my job. I step out on faith fully even though………

I encourage you today to step out on faith. Do what is in your heart today. Let go of whatever is holding you back. Release whatever is troubling you. Let God take over. I promise you your labor will not be in vain.

Love you with love of Christ,

Kelly