For this reason I remind you to keep alive the gift that God gave you when I laid my hands on you. For the Spirit that God has given us does not make us timid; instead, his Spirit fills us with power, love, and self-control. Do not be ashamed, then, of witnessing for our Lord; nor be ashamed of me, a prisoner for Christ’s sake. Instead, take your part in suffering for the Good News, as God gives you the strength to do it. 2 Timothy 1:6-8

It’s been a couple of days since I wrote last. I stopped because I thought I was not hearing the Holy Spirit anymore. The doubt began to creep in. I did not think anyone would care what I had to say at this point, because I did not have some profound revelation or some miraculous breakthrough. I am still that woman that has been struck repeatedly in the recent months by major setbacks. I have no idea why things are happening to me. I have no idea of how I am going to come out on the other side so I can be a witness to other people. So again, doubt began to creep in. With that doubt came the wavering of my faith. I mean I would go through the motions but my belief system was being pushed to the limits.

This morning as I prayed, I asked God to reveal to me my purpose. I cannot just be out here with no direction. My life had such structure to it and within the last year my infrastructure has crumbled. I am trying to rebuild but with out the blueprints I do not have a clue of where to begin. So I prayed. I prayed by declaring and decreeing that my life will have structure to it. I prayed that by the blood of Jesus that I would be made whole…… tenfold. I prayed that whatever was taken from me would be come clear soon. I prayed that I could relate to Job, Moses, Esther and David. I prayed that God use me in a way so that I would understand that the heartbreak and disappointment that I was experiencing would become clear. I prayed. After I prayed I got on my morning conference call. The topic was 2 Timothy 1:6-7. I read on to 2 Timothy 1:8. That is when I realized that God heard what I prayed for.

Here is the point of today’s blog. We ask in faith to God to reveal things to us or to heal us or to direct us but then we do not activite our faith. We do not stay persist in doing what is laid on our hearts to do. Just because it is something that is uncomfortable or something that is out of character or something that does not yield dividends does not mean that it is not God answering us. We need to ask, believe it is already done and act in faith. So today I write. I wrote because I know that is one of the things that God had put on my heart a long time ago. To be transparent so others can be inspired or encouraged to move forward regardless of what the circumstances my look like now. Do not doubt what God has whispered to you through music, devotionals or people. Do not be stagnant. Move forward. Do not be afraid.

We are made to persist. That’s how we find out who we are. – Tobias Wolff

Love you much & I will be back!

Kelly